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November 26, 2009/ 8:01 PM
Government officials should be addressed as Public servants, as they are fundamentally. In a democratic setup such as our's, public servants are elected to represent the people. The switch in terminology somehow dethrones the officials who think themselves kings over the people. Well apparently, some go beyond royalty and claim divinity--asseting mortal and, in turn, moral superiority as they claim lives in a whim.
There are those behind the Maguindanao massacre.
Massacre, in every sense of the word
As of count, 54 bodies have been found in in Shariff Aguak, Ampatuan, Maguindanao. The discovery was precedented by the murder of the Mangudadatu convoy, a clan whose member plans to run against incumbent mayor Andal Ampatuan.
On the way to file a COC for Esmail Mangudadatu, his wife, relatives, and members of the media were intercepted by armed men. The convoy is slaughtered in an off-road hill, while a backhoe dug a mass grave where their bodies will later be dumped. The backhoe bears the name of municipal gov't of Ampatuan. The armed men flee as the Philippine Army approached, leaving some bodies sprawled on the ground.
The women were found to be raped and mutilated before being murdered. Later, other cars would be found in the mass grave along with decomposing bodies, proving that this massacre isn't the first of its kind in Maguindanao.
Untouchables
Who keeps democracy, democracy
Hours before, Mayor Ampatuan was brought into NBI. The Justice Secretary said the case shall be concluded in 36 hours. This, after broadcasting networks have put up countdowns until justice has been served.
Now the world has deemed the Philippines the most dangerous place for journalists, as we are also known to have the most liberated one. Philippine media has served as more than just the watchdog it's supposed to be, it has delivered for its people more than the government has. The Mangudadatu's asked media to accompany them in the filing of COC for protection, National authorities gave significant attention and efforts in the grave site after journalists complained of its slow pace, now it serves as the catalyst for the justice system.
In a country where the media is more of a representative of the people than "public servants", the fourth estate democratizes a country demoralized and abused by the other estates for what it is.
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Worse than cooties
November 24, 2009/ 3:47 AM
A germ idea for a script wormed it's way into my brain. I'm so hyped I can't sleep. I've scribbled and typed but still can't manage to appease my self. I think this is one of the worst cases of "attacks" I've had so far. Let me attempt to explain it. My chest feels heavy and there's a threatening tendency for tears...tears of frustration, doubt, excitement, hope, and adrenaline all rolled into one. It's when you're hyped to express but desperately hold on to objectivity and proper thinking so you can document the many worlds that unfold in your brain into something eligible, something you can go back to after the frenzy. Frenzy seems so apt. You're in an overdrive and at the same time in a struggle to grasp all the details that go with it. If you don't it'd be like speaking in tongues. On the other hand, failure to contain everything for what'll pass as a creative output entails vexation. Hah.
They say writing is the loneliest profession since when you write, you write alone. You can have another person in the room, a crowd even, but YOU. WRITE. ALONE. (And having a typist doesn't contradict that, don't be too literal you ass). Well let me add craziest. You write alone, and you're to deal with immeasurable phantasms ALONE.
So there. This account may not make sense tomorrow but it shall be a testament to an absence of sense. Ciao.
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double edged celluloid
November 17, 2009/ 11:16 PM
O. M. G.
Direk R just gave me a HUGE offer, one that's very very very hard to resist. I shall make history by accepting this one--youngest in the field to do so if I give my Yes. HERES THE EFFIN CATCH: What'll possibly make history is the hindrance itself. I've only had three projects, and only in one did I get a grasp of the bigger picture, responsibilities, obligations and the whole hodgepodge that goes into production. I don't know if I'm ready or maybe I'm not but this is too tempting. It will mark my spot in the arena, mark my existence, an opportunity for greatness. I'm torn between taking a chance and just give it my best or stay safe and save myself from potential shame. The higher the price, the bigger the stakes. My reputation, money, relationships, and a lot more is at stake....but this is just so good. ALMOST TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.
I need to consult my mentors.
Mother F. I need counseling.
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more tha the J...
November 15, 2009/ 10:33 PM
"You're rolling with us now"
And I am. I want to assume your Y chromosomes get in the way of actual mush, so I could take the jest as something more. And yes, you do have mush--I know about the crying incident over Francis M., I've gone through your Playlists (you recently added 500 D.O.S OST), and I've experienced your Bromances, respectively, haha. The past weeks have been crazy fun. They say it's the little things that stick to you. Well excuse the corn, but I'd like to write them down given my selective amnesia. Singing to Wonder Boy while going 80 on the road, talking shit despite the beautiful view of the city lights, waiting up for isaw like school kids, going on a road trip on a whim= Crazy Fun. I don't know where I'm going, but I know I'm picking up some things from you guys along the way. Wherever this road goes to, I'm enjoying your company so...
I think I'd like to keep on rolling :))
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Scylla and Charybdis
November 03, 2009/ 1:44 AM
I don't know exactly where I'm standing right now, or if there's a future for me in this field. I just recently revived my passion, or realized I've forgotten that I've always had this passion, and I'm having fun. I want to explore this world that I've put off for a long time. If I don't get rich from it, the friends and insights I gain will certainly be enough. I believe I have vision, and if I can't realize it through the stage, perhaps other media calls for it. I don't want to limit myself. True artists express, not impress...boxing myself in one form alone may be a crime.
Can a person have two passions at once? Or is it true that one will always be above the other? Or is it up to you to work on the channel--or opportunity to be more apt--you have at your dispense? Is it a curse or just a case of multi-tasking? Either way, it doesn't hurt to have the best of both worlds (or in some cases the worst).
I hope the powers may be will grant me a definite sign if it's the ripe time for me to let go of one love ad move on to the next which loves me back. For now at least. The road I've taken or has been taking is not a n easy one. I struggle everyday with the imminent and undying thought: "Am I doing the right thing?". All I know is I'm happy where I am right now, or at least better since contentment is a constant goal.
One of my many world greets me with a glum countenance every time, one holds a comforting hand without me knowing. It seems logical to choose the one that doesn't turn your heart into shreds...but I can't let go of the other one, despite my many tumbles and fall. I can't let go right now. I still can't let go. Again, why plant the desire if efforts seem futile?
Hayyy....whatever. Basta masaya naman ako ngayon.
I don't expect to make an oeuvre in a years time or two, but will certainly try. I wish I can channel frustrations in a creative manner, turn one heartbreak into a masterpiece. Until then, I'd do my best. And I'll certainly make the most out of it.
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