Yesterday, we went to the auditions for the upcoming Cinema One original film Metlogs from the creators of Duda and Bath house. (Metlogs stands for Metrosexual Jologs.) I was pushed into this so I was really scared. It was my first ever VTR. Fortunately, the Kuya who welcomed us was really nice. We filled up a form...it asked for sex and gender. I asked what's the difference but didn't get a clear answer. Seeing that the following questions were: Willing to show back__Frontal___, kiss male partner__, kiss female partner___, etc. I wrote female to sex and wrote STRAIGHT female to gender.

My fingers we're shaking as I held on to my blogsh and waited for my name to be called. I can hear my heart beat through my ears. I expected that the room I was to go into was filled with a lot of people who'll orchestratically look me up and down, an inquisition. It wasn't. There were only two people, a camera and hallogens. They took shots of my profile, made me deliver my lines: "...Anong klaseng trabaho 'to?! Wala ka na bang magawang tama??" And that's it. I think it went OK. The kind kuya told me he will never forget my weird name as we made our exit.

Well, I hope it pops into his head during casting.